Hold me close with out touching me.
Love me dearly without showing me.
Kiss me sweetly without seeing me.
Need me the most without knowing me.

Things that I've struggled with throughout my life
Wanting to fall in love with out paying the price.
That price is pain it comes so sharp and quick
Like a form of a bruise from a swing of a stick

My mind and heart are at constant war
Never  seeking resolution my soul has tore
Into 2 different views of which happiness bloom
But cancel each other out leaving a depressive doom

It's not my fault I choose this way
At least I can write about it a bit today
I won't give up on finding a solution
To that love and sadness that needs resolution

I'm strong with weakness
I'm in love with loneliness
I'm proud with shame
I'm happy with my name