Sitting with nothing left to give
    Holding it all in so nothing will fall.
       Trying not to give up the fight.
         But wanting to loss it all.
             The pain that i have runs to deep that the tears at night i shall not keep.
             Afraid that i will find my self alone, trying not to loss control.
                There a madness that i have inside that is trying so hard to come out and shine.
                  I find my self just sitting hear asking my self why and wanting to run and hind to the other side.
                    Giving up and giving in to the darkness that has it all, but fighting for one last hope.
                          My heart hurts with a pain that runs so deep and my body hurts from all the beatings it takes.
                            Down to my knees i fall yelling up in the dark dark sky
                    trying to find some kind of light,
                            Holding on to all those nights where you kept me save and warm, wrap up in your arms where you wont let go.
               Telling me that you will keep me save nothing to worry about as i fall asleep.
             waking up next too you just knowing i will make it tho. another lost dream that i wish i never had but still hear sitting and holding on to you.
                                                            ­               Baby Cakes 8/22/2016