Uneasy
Deflecting affection
Perception twisted
Hearing loss born of fear of rejection
Where's the insurrection against the tyranny of my mind
Hormones lack kindness
Heading toward a black hole
Find a way out, doubt it
A slave to time while I lose my mind
Haven't mastered the Jedi ways that could slay the monster inside my head
Find relief in my love but
still can't rise above
Self defense is my strategy but usually ends in apology
When will it end?
When will it bend to my pleas?
How can I find peace?
Mind over matter doesn't matter to me
Great distance from healing
Caught up in the dark feeling
Relinquish my power
The enemy is fierce
I'm so weak
Hope hides in the shadows taunting me
Drowning in darkness
Constantly losing ground
The futility
Exhausted and beaten down
Temporary
No fight just calm when the darkness leaves
Down a long hall it waits for me
Not today but it will come again soon
Accept it, live with madness
No thanks, I'll drive it away eventually.