I try so hard to understand the pictures in my mind I try so very hard to see what I once left behind I walk the line in narrow streets Heavy walls close in on me I try so hard to do things right To live a day to sleep a night My bodies tired my mind is fast Full of scared an angry past Full of pain and dread and fear Wanting to get out of here I don't know how to make it stop The feelings of fear the churning knots the deepest cut inside my soul the angry words the masks at windows starring in The sound of footprints closing in The fear of being dragged within The fear this time of giving in Of standing there letting it in No longer able to fight the din Clawing at the bridge of rope another door another room Another evil to consume Another evil to endure Same sounds of shadows pass Same feel of cold and draft Then the smell like tar pitch black like cariasote you paint a fence Then darkness and silence your only friend You wake your body bones an skin crawling flesh that burns within You shake like snow has fallen hard So cold so tired and leg bones pull and twist so sharp My jaw it aches my ears too ringing silence rips you through Storms over but no escape Nightmares gone but you never wake Instead beneath the ice you swim Always silent closed within afraid to speak to let it in Just swim and swim don't scream don't ever ever let it in