leaves are always falling down from the trees, straying from the branches, but i never thought that you would leave me. i may have thought plenty of others would, but you- you caught me by surprise. i didn't expect your departure. i didn't expect you to just walk out the door, without a word. it was like you wanted to, like you always did, deep down inside, and i had just given you the means to escape. escape from what? my love? my care? maybe it was too much for you. maybe i was in, and you were out there, far, far out there, and it was all simply an illusion that you wanted me. that you wanted this. i suppose in that way, i'm just a sapling. i believed you were going to stay with me forever, through even the coldest of the seasons. all the eldest of trees told me you wouldn't, but i believed, for once more in my life. and i was let down, yet again.

i guess i'll have to get used to this continuous torment, until i find the ones that do stay.

i just hope it's soon. i've never hoped so much for anything.

i just want somebody to stay.