Are you clueless...because you can't take a hint
Probably because I don't give off that vibe
I sacrifice others feelings before mine
"It's only a matter of time",I say to myself
"That what"?,"That who"?, That he or she takes a hint

But they don't realize or even try to sympathize
I tear myself up inside,ruining my self-worth
Saying I'm just a person of "Use",No one wants to actually be true friends anymore
I avoid people, afraid of being that person of "Use" again
Then I meet someone,and the same story plays over and over,where does it end
"Why can't I take control",you may be wondering,well I'm asking myself that too

See the battle isn't with those "Users" as you can see by now
Its with me...No strength,no determination,I just wish life was a vacation
I've held that knife to the vein of my wrist...that pill to the tip of my lips
But I'm just a coward too scared to sip or slit the problems away
I might as well stay and face another day of this ****** life

I just want to be able to smile,and actually enjoy being alive
That's all I ask,but no I had to be born in a house where abuse is alive
In a world where my race isn't accepted
In a society where only skinny is allowed
In a community where I have to follow the guidelines of the "American Life"

All I see is labels and more labels
Can't I express myself without the world having to "Understand" me
Hell, I don't understand myself let along you knowing me
I'm just a number in your system, a person hidden in your files
Again I still try to smile, while I get piled and tempted to just end it

But..then again,you still might not be able to comprehend this
I don't express this,but you can see the grief,weighing heavy on me
I've felt like this since I was Five,and I've accepted of whats' become of life

My past is future,my future is my past,my present should be changing
But, I'm steady hanging on, one little mishap, I might just have to shoot a cap
For you all to take hint