the gut’s baby steps
by ThedominiqueofregressioN
March 2008
I found my legs shaking
trembling before my schoolmates
somewhere
I hid it under the table, under the first
bottle of Generoso, yes, so local you puke with hate
There with me is the formidable lesbian
I fell so badly in love with back then
at first I knew coming along was a bad idea
but let me tell you, first times are as fickle
as those bitches your dick got used to
and yeah, the first drink of the grape
straightened my frightened legs
gave me courage
but no, it’s not what you think it is
I snubbed her all the way
that is right
after she got a little bit tipsy in the middle
and told me how she’s gonna tell her
big brother that she’s gonna get herself
a boy friend
and more fellow schoolmates came
most of them look up to irrelevant
people like Tupac, Snoop and whoever
it is that can speak fast on drugs.
we reached the denouement
of the unplanned gathering
I wasn’t able to handle myself
for I was pissing everyone off.
three of them even tried to gang up on me
but the tides sided with me
as Deo who almost died last year
sent me home.
my father was so fucking furious
when he first saw, smelled and heard
his son drunk
it was a replica in progress.