I don’t like having to put in the effort on things that leave an extra page missing I can’t trust it You’re every little thread I’ve tiptoed around Making sure I don’t move on unchartered space too quickly I felt like you didn’t want that too With your experience and all Your chapters have started There have been important people Leaving fly leafs Or bookmarks Waiting to be scanned through blankly Or Revisited I don’t know who was important enough And I’m too afraid to ask As to who That little thread head was So I made a subtle investigation I’ve wandered around some parts of your book to merit Audible versions of this girl whose book So well covered In dusted promises and doodles There was an innocence left of her That was so kept She needed to hold my hand To lift her pages so slightly “Careful” She whispers a great deal These past few months She’s trusted me with The choreographed pressure of how To feather the leaves of her past On good days she’d read back ours I’ve quoted enough lines and characters and memories To entertain her of how it once was The threads vibrate and echo Reiterated but answers back the same The untangled locks at least I’ve seen fly leafs Those were left with no closure “We kind of just stopped talking” or “can we not mention her” I’ve seen bookmarks Of relatives and family and friends And lovers The bookmark had thread hair that tangled up so much that it left an aching worry in my heart She was a lover A lover with a bookmark The bookmark who echoed a little too differently and brushed my skin too often when I’d lift a page A little too close to the chapter on which she was written about I don’t have quotes on her But I have their stories Stories have become our currency The currency that equaled trust The same currency that taught me how she was And how to be The currency that mattered I’ve invested on these stories and have managed the skill of being gentle I was the chapter that started after the messed up spool of the thread head lover I guess that’s why it brushes in so close to me I’m worried that I’ll end up tripping over thread, hold a page too tight That I’ll rip down my own pages And mess up perfectly fonted words Forcing you to Close down a chapter of me with a torn out page You were too sentimental to throw away And just be left as not even A bookmark But rather a poor excuse for a fly leaf that You’d rather not talk about.