I love you
I want you
I want you
to kiss me
kiss me with a kiss
so powerful
it brings me to weep
silent tears of triumph
I want you to need me
need me so much
it hurts to breathe
need me more then
you need air
then life itself
don't you love me?
why would you hurt me so?
why?
did it bring you
sick satisfaction
to see me
on the floor
broken
bleeding
crying tears of red
and watch them
dry red stains
across my face
the pain swallows me up
I cannot take it anymore
I must have a release
my nails grab my forearm
and squeeze
from hurt
despair
finally one breaks through
I am done
I still hurt
but it is easier to cope
I sit in my corner
staring aimlessly
into nothing
I'm broken
my heart betrayed
destroyed
into a million pieces
won't someone
anyone
come save me?
I'm calling for help
I'm reaching out to you
but you need to show me
show me you care
don't tell me you like me
when you've never met me
you don't know me
you know nothing
don't like me because
I appeal to your eyes
you're the new boy
I just met
you can't like me instantly
I told you to stop.
why must you push it?
Please.
Stop.
I'm not ready to hurt again
I just stopped
stop telling me you care
I don't believe you
it's hard for me to believe people
I told you I had to go
you told me you wouldn't hurt me
you would be different
I don't know
I'm sitting here
I'm confused
I'm aching
I feel empty where my heart should be
I want someone to love me
but I cannot trust anyone enough
to get that close
I did it before
I got hurt
no more
I'm terrified
those shivering cold sweats
that's me
what about the other one?
he's easy
I've known him longer
he's fun
he makes me smile
is it so bad to wonder?
the first text I see
when I wake up
the last one I see
when my eyes shut
he seems to care
I don't know
I want my Fairy-tale
I want to be happy
to not deal with this
I want my Prince
in armor so white
it almost looks like heaven
where's my happy ending?
I love you you know
who ever you are
I care so much
it hurts to write this
the emotion
anger
fear
pain
coursing through my veins
my entire body
out of my fingertips
onto this paper
the red stained tears from my eyes
fall onto this paper
don't you want me?
I want you
don't you miss me?
I miss you
don't you love me?
don't you need me?
I do.