I need different arms and elbows; these are used, they fall asleep at night and I wake up without them, worried and wondering if my arms might be oragamied into a crane, flying shadow puppets stuck to the walls that can’t find the window. They scoop cupfuls of clay riverbeds over each other that dry into casts and click against the floor as my arms make their way home. I’ve threatened to leave them under such conditions but I’m certain they’ll leave me first.
This new apartment—she’s cheap and *****, used up. lazy ceiling tiles pillow down and yellow, watching me half-heartedly. Then somehow you, always full with something, your shoulders
taking up the whole hall, phonetic laugh and roomfuls of teeth. Upon seeing you, I wonder how ancient pieces of broken church feel against calluses, what it will sound like to give birth. There is a word for this in Siena, allupato. The wolves starve and feed.