When you're here were #goals and Instagram worthy yet when you're gone I just feel empty. You called me disgusting but corrected yourself and said my actions were disgusting. I take the bullets of hurtful phrases that our friends fire at both of us yet you are left unscathed. I on the other hand am shattered and falling apart. Breaking like a window and falling into the shards. But I still love you. You tell me that I'm overemotional but how can I not be when you use my largest insecurities against me and then say that you're joking. A huge important date arrives yet you're off with your friends. What's worse is when I tell you how I feel you dismiss me and say I should understand. But it's fine because I'll cry about it tonight and realize I was the one at fault because I'm overemotional and I shouldn't have made you feel bad. Tomorrow I'll apologize and then you'll say you're at fault and then we'll hug and say I love you and we'll both forget it and we'll be fine. But of course you aren't all bad because when my mother torments me at 11:30 at night you come over and we go on a drive where I cry and my makeup is everywhere yet you tell me I'm beautiful. I told you I was gaining weight and showed you my stretch marks you kissed them and said that everyone has them. When I tell you that I'm done with this life you never tell me to stay for you but instead you give me reasons to stay for myself. I really hate you sometimes but even when I feel that I can't be near you I can't help but think that
I love you.