again and again i find myself drawn back to places in which i used to hide to futures mapped out with best friends and soulmates too early found on late night phone calls and skype windows
i built my future around him and it has been years since i've seen him weeks since i heard his voice and meer days since i liked a photo
i wonder if he ever thinks of me as i think of him but i know i built my future on a love like an ocean deep and unpredictable and washing away
he chose something, someone, much more solid he found a foundation to build his home upon and i am left building a castle in clouds above a torrential ocean
i know at once and not at all suddenly that he has a future and it does not include me and even if it did i am not the same
i must find the voice in my head that tells me i can be happy on my own i just have to know myself and i find that was always part of the challenge