i don’t know what to do
soon this will all be gone
it will just be me
and all of my thoughts

i won’t be able to hear my sisters
talking in the next room over
or hear my dad swearing
in my ear

i will miss waking up to the sun stretching out
over the field
and i won’t  hear the birds singing
on my window sill

my mornings will be just me
no sister
no father
and no boyfriend

no more loud music
or sister dates
no more morning tv
and no more driving around town

i can no longer cry myself to sleep
or keep my journal by my bed
i can’t pretend to sing
or write any more of my songs

i can’t go to my sisters house
in just 20 minutes
or see my brother
in just 30

i am going from a house
filled with family
to a room
of just me

i won’t hear my sisters laughing
or making stupid jokes
i won’t hear my sisters invite me
to hang out with them

i won’t be able to call my boyfriend
and make plans for that day
because while he is staying
i am moving

it will be a change
a change that I’m not yet ready for
but things could be worse
i just need to keep my head up high

and remember
four years isn’t that long
because four years from now
i will already be back home