I am starting to think,
I may actually be okay.
It is not a big step I am aware,
But I took myself out today.
I was alone, in a crowd.
But I didn’t want to hide and cry.
I was confident enough,
I even smiled at folks who looked my way,
And said “hi”
I think if I push myself,
Just a little each day…
When I look in the mirror one day that’s quite soon,,
I wont be lying to myself when I tell myself
It will be okay.
I can see who I am,
Even if just a tiny glimpse,
I am still there.
I can fight back, I can win.
Even if this ****** life is so unfair.

I have been dealt many blows,
And I have laid broken too long,
I just need to finally realize,
I am actually this strong.
I am still standing if battered,
Bruised that is for sure.
I am crying, and I am lonely.
But my heart is still pure.
I still see the good in every person I meet.
I still want the perfect true love.
Fall asleep with kisses so sweet.

Even though there is dark,
And the sadness is not gone.
Please know I am here trying.
Please know I am thing strong.
I ask you for patience,
I ask you for care,
I ask for your love,
And to simply be there.

It wont always be so bleak,
I wont be such a dread,
I wont always have crazy thoughts
Filling my head.

I ask you for love,
And honesty too.
I ask for forgiveness,
For everything I have done to you.

Where I am struggling back from,
Is a very dark place.
I am fighting strong demons,
Who have won for a while.
But my love, I promise you,
Be there for me now.
And one day soon we will both smile.

If you want to see me be good,
Be the girl that did steal your heart.
Then please, I beg of you,
Lets go back to how we were at the start

Where our kisses didn’t end,
And we were each other’s best friend.
Where the passion was electric.
And the laughter was endless.
Please show me this is still possible.
Cause at times I am afraid.

That I have lost that perfect thing forever.
That I have damaged you, now you are forever changed.
You are my light, you are my heart and you are the reason I fight.

All that I ask if that you hold me at night,
And kiss me, and hold me,
Show me what I mean,
I promise you now baby, I will do just the same.

It is a step, and a little one,
I know but please see.
I am trying to be what I need me to be.