For K:
As I was sitting,
legs lotus-folded (like human origami)
Listening to your message
Thinking how your wry wit always
sends trickles of glory into my laugh
As I was listening,
ears cold without the warmth
Of your conversation to heat them
I wished for your kind of company,
like a museum in the rain
And I was thinking
I don't know what this means
I was searching for evidence
like a deaf man for music
Or perhaps more like a dust mote
looking for home
Perhaps more like a map
Embossed vellum with names of
Places etched meaningfully
With red dotted trails leading
Looping and folding back into themselves
Except the X is absent
I was looking for meaning
in the ideas we'd shared
And here is the truth, I do not
twinge with dolorousness
I do not keep souvenirs of you
You will find no evidence of the time
(chalk-dusted fingerprints on cold glass)
Spent with me until you
(hush and behold the mystery)
reach to discover moments
(hidden and higher than most)
Stacked tall in my memory
(tip the shelves in the library, it all tumbles down)