I am a night owl I get it from mom I mean if you can really inherit a sleeping disorder. I was told it was because I had too much going on in my mind I needed to rest but you can't really turn off your brain.
I can't stop thinking I can't get rid of the vivid images in my head the screams the sobs the pain it won't go away. It haunts me with every step I take, every breath I make, every blink of an eye is a mini nightmare I wish to not see.
Please if you hear me take my dreams and make them disappear. I'm scared of my own head I'm scared of the images that it creates for me to see and sometimes I don't need to close my eyes to see nightmares because the nightmares became reality. I can't even tell the difference between a human and a demon, what do you do when your own mind is against you?
Everything is enclosing on me the right things are turning into the wrong things while the mess is perfectly clear to see.
Tick tock ding another bad dream is ready to be seen adding more weight to my shoulder adding boulder by boulder while my heart is starting to get colder.
Tick tock another chime on the clock for my nightmare is ready to turn from a dream to reality.
Tick tock the clock won't ever stop tick tock more rocks tick tock another demon in the crowd too many I can't pick any out.
The ticking won't stop the clock strikes 1 another loved one gone striking 2 another student drops blue 3 more families crying 4 more nightmares are made 5 another innocent person 6 more broken hearts that won't get fix 7 the blur of my mind begins again 8 questioning why I can't control my head 9 help please my mind is taking a toll on me 10 11 12 now to repeat. There is no white flag in the battle against your brain for your brain feels no pain.