Non existing no matter how you try...spots of a leopard never change here's why...time can demolish those who allow time to control there thoughts...not important to most with lies and deceit by the one closest can hurt to the core...numbness is protection from years of mistrust by those closest...strength is yours with a mind that can block pain...My heart is open but words from others are gospel and I'm no longer with knowledge...This train is one way with a destination leading to another land...My audience is now one...Me