i'm a **** up
i guess we'll just start there
i pushed all my friends away
and now i have no one

i spend my days off sitting on my bed alone wondering where the **** i went wrong
how did i stray so far from the path
and how the **** do i get back?

i let everyone down
without even meaning too
but more importantly,
i let myself down the most

i didn't think any of this would happen
but i guess thats where the main problem lies
i didn't think

i wasn't prepared
and i wasn't myself
i did what i thought i wanted
and neglected my friends and my priorities in the process

I'm always trying to live up to the standards
that are my sisters
but **** do i ever feel lost

for once i wanted to be known and appreciated
but wow be careful for what you wish for
because i was definitely known
but for all the wrong reasons

I've learned my lesson
but theres still many more to come
i just wish i didn't lose everyone so fast

yes, i still make really stupid decisions
and i really wish i didn't
but thats why I'm a **** up
because i do the same thing over and over even after knowing how it will end