Outside there is Life
Vitality
Freedom
There is Joy
Love, Friendship, Community, Faith, Individuality, Hope, Confidence
Outside there is Life

Inside there is cold
sadness
a broken spirit
there is fear
frustration, anger, boredom, confusion, loneliness, desire but no fire

God did not give me a spirit of timidity, they tell me. He gave me a spirit of courage.
But I cannot feel it.