okay

every so often
I'll get these completely
random
bursts of courage and hope
& I have to write them down
or they will float away
in the forgotten land of things
I should have done

if I can't work with diligence
to better myself
& do things that make me smile
none of this will improve
& I'll keep waking
without the desire to
soar

the spring will help
the sun will help
but I fear they might not arrive
in a timely fashion


I have to keep remembering that
there are actually people
in this world
who love me and find me quite
bearable

its all I can do to keep from
sinking into the floor
& screaming into the
flat blue carpet

thank you for your time