I've lost my mind
Trying to put everything into order
I've lost my soul
Trying to find my self
Or at least what I could gather
I've lost people I love
Trying my best, for them, to be better

But now I'm afraid of finding out what I've become
Though I'm more afraid of finding out
That I didn't have to become anything at all
That I was just this monster all along
And what everbody believes about me is wrong

It's easy to make people think they know me
That they can read me so easily
I wish it was so
But they don't
Not really
And they can't
Not even the summary

Because I've become too good at hiding
A product of lifetimes before a mirror practicing
Nobody really knows the trick behind it but me
And honestly
Sometimes I wish it didn't always work so easily
But nobody's gotten past the mask I wear daily
Because people like the facade I give
And the words that say I wear my heart on my sleeve

I'm a master of illusion
Making things seem like they're there
When they're not
So don't ever tell me you love me
Because that's not something you know
So I'm sorry if I'm not quite convinced
That it's me you love
And not my shadow