I am so terrified. Ashamed in a dark veil
rolling in it for days now, no cut out to be found.

i would press my stomach until I became so small that to reinvent myself would be just like enlarging
not starting over.
shame in the shadow tucks me in, several times a day.
rather than cries for help
blurs of hell

they whisper it wont end
dont fool your self
you are just fooling yourself
when you come this far going anywhere else....hah, dont fool yourself
slur into oblivion
maltreat into expiration