People say that
Uncertainty of the future
Should have me feeling unsettled,
Not fully stable,
Not firmly planted in the present.
Someone is always asking me,
“Where is your relationship going?
What does he want from you?”
It tickles me when I see peoples feathers ruffled
when I tell them that I don’t care about their idea of what my tomorrow should be.
Because, truth be told,
I enjoy the now,
The right here,
That I spend with you.
I feel cherished in our moment,
Treasured in our space.
The uncertainty comes
When people put my supposed to be feelings in a box
And send them first class beyond the sunset,
Where the happily ever after dwells.
Do I think we’ll live in happily ever after?
I really don’t know.
And that should **** me right?
Because a woman is supposed to be so sure and
A man has to, like, get his **** together, **** or get off the *** right?
But I honestly don’t even care.
And what would really freak them out
Is that I’m not even sure if I want to go
Where happily ever after is and be there.
But what I do know
Is that I love the way you look at me.
I love the way you make me laugh and want you at the same time.
I love the way you touch my hair,
And kiss my face when we’re at the movies.
I love the gentleman/thug in you.
I love our conversations
And the private jokes we share.
And when you kiss me,
When you make love to me,
When you’re rubbing my back after the night so long,
I hold my breath in,
Hoping that the moment never ends.
But the thing is,
It does end.
The conversations die out.
The sounds of laughter fades.
And the jokes and strokes are long forgotten.
But in this very moment,
Uncertainty doesn’t live where I live.
As long as I relish in today,
Knowing that all that really matters
Is this very moment,
This time, this very space
Where you and I are.
People get so wrapped up
In what will happen tomorrow,
When it’s my hand you’re holding
Right now.
When you’re staring into my eyes, seeing only me, for who I really am
Right now.
When it’s your laughter that I cherish
Right now.
There’s no room for peoples uncertainty
In this connection we have.
Only room for
Right now.
And that’s the only thing I need to be certain of.