It's 6:25am.
I haven't slept.
I'm in a horrible mood.
However I've made a decision.
It's time to be who I truly am again.
The girl I used to be wasn't weak.
She was head strong and stuck to her morals.
She believed that love and *** are not to be taken lightly.
They are beautiful things and not to be thrown around and abused.
The girl I was...
She was sweet.
Cared for everyone around her.
It didn't matter who you were or what was going on, if someone needed help she was there.
She was brutally honest and didn't care what anyone thought of her.

The person I've become sickens me...
She is dark and bitter.
She acts without thinking just to spend the next few days hating herself for what she has done.
She has hurt the people she loves most.
She doesn't care what happens as long as she feels okay in the moment.
She has been hurt and broken so many times that she has nothing left in her.
All the bad bounces off of her because she has forced herself not to care.
She has no regard for those around her.
She lies to the people closest to her so she doesn't have to admit how horrible of a person she has become.

So here I am now.
In this moment.
This sleepless, emotional moment.
I have decided to become the girl I was.
The girl I truly am.
Somebody that I can be proud of.
I've decided to be the girl without a broken heart and go back to being full of love.
It's time I learn to love myself again.