monday - i slept for three hours and the weekend only existed in smog the rattling came through my bones like an old friend i had forgotten tuesday - last night i had taken something to put me out of this for half a day i woke up and was convinced that the virus had finally left wednesday - a twitch of the wrist can make me believe that nothing could ever be the same yet i still can meet new people and speak with them like i knew them yesterday thursday - the cars rolling by the window at night cast lights that look like daggers as they drift slowly towards my toes then disappear behind the walls friday - there's a slight ringing in my ears but the sun always appears to be glowing just behind the trees and it's always there it's always there