Things have been uncomfortable
I don't know much how to handle it
My writing has gone to shit
And I honestly am scared
Everything feels very one track
And I don't fully feel here
As in I don't feel connected to earth
It feels like I'm an outsider on my own life
I'm sure this just sounds a little dull
Melodramatic even but I wanted you to know that I am concerned
I don't think the hospital could help
And no therapist would tell me what to do
I can't tell them how I feel because I don't know how to explain it
I've been waking up with nose bleeds and I think they look really cool
Maybe I'm on the verge of dying but I don't know it so I'm still living
I hope that I don't leave you guys behind
I don't want to be missed like this
I know I'm a little morbid at times
But I'm just pouring all of my blood to feel fine
This isn't like last time
I haven't done anything stupid
But I feel like I should have
At least I would have known why I feel this way
This is something that I haven't ever felt
It won't let me run away
I'm stuck in a nightmare
I hope that you will come find me