i have never been one to compare myself to others
to look at me and wish to see them,
to hide within myself

i have never been one to cry at the plate in front of me
to dread the feeling
of feeling more empty
as my stomach feels full

i have never been one to chase boys
who would never chase me
to be like her so you would like me
to lose myself in order to do so

i have never been one to slowly slip away
to be seen but not touched
to be read but not understood
to be forgiven but not forgotten

yes
let's pretend
that ive never been one of these things