Why do you like me
When all I do is talk about my former life.
I talk about what I lost
My wonderful kids, my beautiful Ex-Wife.
You listen attentively
You never say anything.
I know you see the sadness in my eyes
That this subject brings.
You say that you like me
You want me for yourself.
How is that possible
When I'm in love with someone else?
When I sleep at night
You aren't even on my mind.
Thoughts on my Ex-Wife
Occupy my time.
I look at you & wonder
If this is a mistake.
Will this love I feel for my Ex
Eventually, cause you some type of heartache?
It's hard sometimes to look at you
Because my Ex is who I'd rather be with.
I know that you want my heart
But my Ex is the one who has it.
You text, you call
You give me all kinds of attention.
I just can't reciprocate those feelings
I'm not as attentive.
I can't live a lie
& return feelings that aren't true.
That was be so mean
If I did that shyt to you.
I'm not saying I'm "all that"
Because I know that I'm not.
As much as you want to be in my heart
My Ex-Wife still has that spot.
The first time I saw Leesah
I knew she was The One.
When I look at you
You're a girl with whom I can have some fun.
You deserve better
A man who'll love you completely.
If we keep going on like this
You'll begin to resent me.
My heart is with a woman
Who I have no chance with.
I feel nothing for you
When we're alone & kiss.
You're physically attractive
Definitely not ******* the eyes.
But if I told you I love you
That would be nothing but lies.
I just want to make this clear
I want you to understand.
Leesah is my true love
She has the heart of this man.