New York
is home
maybe
well
it's a temporary one
but
nonetheless
I miss it so
Amsterdam
is beautiful
the people
so tall
so blonde
always biking
and I'd like it more
if I could fit
but
I am
hot tempered
angry
cynical
not fit for European life
I'm hesitant
to say
I'm homesick
because I'm still trying to figure out
where 'home' really is
but
I'll concede
I miss certain people
I miss certain things
that I never thought I would
and
I'm not begging to leave
but
I'm not begging to stay