words true as they may seem...harmless as they sound but filled with the uncertainties of an eruption.... HE HATES ME
his sweet and calm calm aura repels against me. His hear bleeds because of me, his mind curses the day we met. His head reject memories of me. HE HATES ME
I who once brought joy and happiness, once created laughter and peace of mind, now turned to an object of spite! pleading with a face covered with shame and a body so worthless.
I lost focus on what's important and like a reckless driver, I lost direction. I hope my actions won't make him same. I hope my unfaithfulness doesn't drive a man with a good heart away. I hope it doesn't lead him astray. For then, I wouldn't be able to live with myself.  HE MATES ME.