The truth:
I'm not okay. I'm not fine. I'm in so much pain and my heads a mess full of screaming voices.

I'm confused, lonely, and my heart hurts thinking about you.

I want you all for myself but I can't have you and it drives me crazy.

I'm always trapped in my mind over thinking. I think all the time about what could have been and what would it have been like if i just said yes.

I think of all the memories we have.

The good and the bad.

It makes me smile with tears in my eyes.

Truthfully I wish I didn't fall in love with you but then again I'm happy I did. You make me happy you also make me sad. My heart races for you and shatters at the sight of you too.

I just want to give my all and love with everything I have.

Too be free and not wonder about what could have been.

But I guess its not meant to be anyway.

The lie:
Everything's completely fine.

The truth
I'm losing this game called love.

I'm losing my individuality.

Worst of all I'm losing myself falling for you.