an empty void
set within my chest
and a dog tag with
your name engraved on it
tucked in between.
yet it could not even
stop the suffocating breaths
from swarming out of my lungs.
i often wonder
why is it the souls
with the blinding smiles
and the hearts of the saints
that are turned away.
perhaps it is that
my pride is much too immense
to acknowledge where i went wrong.
they say associations are foolish
yet here i am
with only an empty void
and an eleven year old dog tag
to chase the associations
that made me the lesser.
yes, my pride is immense
although my pride in you
equates to the universes.
classmates will all
follow desires
set at the age of six.
meanwhile
my desires are often
crossed and x'd out
and another rotates in
as if it were a revolving door
set in new york city.
sometimes i wonder
if just i am the only one
with an empty void in my chest
and a piece of metal
to chase the hurt,
or if the feeling is mutual.