The pain i bear and shunned growing up with you
The hurt and names you entitled me with,the things you put me through.
People seen all the amazing things you did
Recognized the way you treated me and not step up one bit.
Living in a horror beneath skin
Destined to be the dummy nobody believe in.
Feeling horrible and strip of self confidence
Didn't know what self esteem was due to your perseverance.
Thought i was nothing based on your actions.
The words you mouth out affected me to a different state,
living with hate.
Full of insecurity and lack of  esteem,
So accustomed to the words you displayed me as , felt like they were my name.
Standing in shame with all eyes lashed on me,
Humiliated and nobody would say a thing.
The pressure that was faced upon me because you didn't loved nor cared for me.
Difficulties faced in the past life, always thought you were right.
Seeing you treat her like a princess left me in despair and melancholia,
Questioning my existence compared to her presence.
Why didn't you loved me, why did you curse at me?
Looked at me with disappointment in his eyes ,
Constant tears rolled down my eyes.
I still wonder why, so hard to hold the hurt in and to get by.
My only wish is to make you proud despite all the downfall,
But all i wanted was for you to answered when I called.

-dpk