Excuses
That's all we ever were,
just a bunch of exceptions and alibis
I couldn't see it when we were together,
I was so blinded
thinking if I could just keep believing in you
then maybe those excuses
those reasons, those loses
would turn into truth
would turn into reality.
I was so blinded
my world was caving in
but I kept pushing it up,
because I thought that if I could just keep
believing in you
then maybe those times
I said
"Oh, but it's just him"
defending you,
then maybe you'd learn to love me
like I loved you.
Now looking back,
I realize that those patches
that were so blurry
so caught up in you
were only remembering the good parts
the solid moments
where you made me think we had this
we could have had this.
I realize that all we ever were
was excuses
reasons, loses
we were a distant boy with a broken soul
and a lost girl who kept using that as an defense
for why you couldn't love her.
We were just excuse after excuse
apology after apology
rain after rain
we were nothing
that I can see
I can now see
we never stood a chance
to have this.