I
Am inherently
And
undeniably defective
I still cry nightly over you
Over the way you said my name
So sweetly
Like a cool breeze through the summer night
Over the way I used to slap your *** and call you beautiful
When you've had a bad day and just needed something to make you feel good
Over the way I used to be with you
Happy is what I used to be
But only with you
Now things are different
And not the good different where the change in was necessary and made you better in the end
But the bad change
Where all you want is for things to be back to normal
Because every second they're not is another second in proverbial hell
I miss the way your lips fit perfectly on mine
I miss the way I used to trace the dip in your spine
I miss the way you said you loved me
I miss the way your hair flowed through my fingers I missed the way I held your heart in my hand
I miss the way you love me
I miss the way I meant so much more to you than any one else
I miss you
I miss me wanting you
I miss me wanting things to go back to how they were
I miss missing things
I miss feeling things
I miss missing


I no longer feel these things I used to feel
I had to **** off those emotions a long time ago to survive
Now
All I feel
Is nothing
But the need
For you
To be happy