I want to say yes,
My brain tells me no,
My heart's crying for it.
Just this one time,
There could be no stress.
If I could just do it again,
Just one time..
Maybe two times...
If I could just quit after that..
I deserve it.
I work so hard.
I pay all my bills.
I go to court.
I've redeemed control.
But my heart still doesn't feel whole.
It still wants to fade away,
Just for one day.
Please just this once,
I could still be okay.
But what if I don't live to see another day..