The abstract expressionists wanted
to
strip
their work of associations
yearning for pure emotion
I didn't understand
but now I do.
Every song I've heard before
heard now
reminds me of my hollow heart
voices and instruments as phantom limb-reminders.
So I find weird instrumentals
electronic
trip-hop
stuff I never liked, things with nothing tied to them.
No summer love
no winter warm kisses
or new year of uncertainty.
It's my escape
into some kind of sensation
for
now.