I'm sorry I spend so much time talking about how lost I am It has cost me my friends and their respect
I'm sorry that my life is changing too fast for me to process I won't come out of this with my mind intact
I apologize for the way I grow distant in a conversation, in the buzz around boyfriends, grades, and prom
I can't say sorry enough for the times I explode for no reason and then go suddenly quiet and terrifyingly calm
I have no disorder or chemical imbalance its not a physiological decay or disease Its a girl questioning why she exists and trying to figure out what life means
I'm sorry that I'm not always there for you when you need me I can understand why you left me behind Just, please keep the crazy, depressed, confused girl in the back of your mind
Please don't forget that I was once happy Please remember that I had a personality prone to joy Tell me about the girl that you used to know years ago the unshakable faith she had before it was stripped down, destroyed
I wouldn't un- ask these questions I couldn't forget them if I tried But I wish that the naive little girl had kept some of that innocence inside
I talk a lot about reflections about how I feel when I'm in my head, apart I hope that you can fogive me and my broken but healing heart