Father, are you proud of me?
I never had you in my life, but I still love you
You never wanted me in your life, but I want you
Imagine how hard it is to not have you in my life.
I have friends who grew up with a dad.
I wished I had you so I had a story to tell about you.
I wished I had you so I can tell my friends “yes I sat on daddy’s lap”
I never had a male role model in my life,
I did not understand how to deal with this
One day my mother sat me down and talked to me,
She had told me “Honey im sorry but he didn’t want you in your life and you have to accept it”
I cried all day and all night, because I realized that he didn’t want me.
At night I think, would everything be different if you were there?
You could have seen me grown up and be proud of me.
I needed you when my mother wasn’t there.