i have so much to say
but the blank page
mirrors my empty mind.
nights are filled with
"what if?" and
"why not?"
i am drowning in my words
the dissolve me
into emotions
their jabs
stinging like salt in a wound
why must it be like this?
why must they mock me so?
their sneers
their choking violence
make me contemplate
the thought of leaving.
leaving my mind behind
evaporating
decomposing into dusty ashes
just for everyone to think of from time to time
i do not own my mind;
my mind owns me