Maybe this will be it.
It should really be it.
Because I can't keep waiting
For you to walk away.
I can't keep walking
On eggshells.
You can be mean.
And do things I ask you not to.
But heaven forbid I fall short.
I can't keep crying over you.
I wish I didn't care.
Because you're not the one
I should care for.
Because this anxiety
Is a real *****.
It breaks my armor down
A little more every time.
It breaks me down
A little more every time.
And the tears ******* hurt.
They hurt like
When I shut everything out.
Maybe you just want to fight.
Maybe you just want to be angry.
I'm trying so hard to help you.
But maybe I can't.
Maybe I just need to accept that.
I don't want to walk away.
I'm scared I won't feel
Anything so deeply again.
And I'm really grateful
For all that you've done.
But I can't keep doing this.
Because I want to be happy.
I want to love.
And I was hoping
I could love you.
But you won't let me.
So I hope this is it.
I really hope this is it.