They never put trigger warnings on mushroom fields On big houses in the country With lots of rooms that can swallow you whole They will claim you as food to feed the mouths of their lions Who will name you victim Name you child I, I was a child When you painted your name across my body in blood And I said no I said no But I did what you asked of me Always so eager to please Good girl Good dog Fetch it. We socialize little girls to submit Submit Submit And you're the polite child Until your identity is wrapped up in staying silent Because the most interesting part about you Cannot be spoken out loud The most interesting part about you Is the game you play with another person Is flying out of your body when he grooms you Flying is a super power, baby You have magic in your fingertips That's why he mistakes you for someone older Eleven years later, I find myself crying in a closet You branded me with victim Yet I have survivor tattooed on my bare skin Every bit of my human says Child and adult alike shout "I should be over this" Two parts, constantly in conflict Agree that I should forget an entire part of my life That shattered me before I had the tools I needed to reassemble the pieces Surviving means there will be months where I am fine And then trigger warning I smell the stale stench of mushrooms Or trigger warning get lost in the rooms of my labyrinth mind And I am right back in that bed again Why do I always need something to hold onto? My father says I make up reasons to be depressed But honestly, I make trophies out of reasons to recover Elevated high on the mantle Every day I see a new one And I'm not saying everyone can reclaim this easily Because I thinks that's a lie we tell people like me Without understanding how much there is below the surface But I know I had to take this back in order to grow and bloom And I remember: Pretty, no, pretty strong girl No, pretty strong woman You are surviving this nightmare You are surviving this You are surviving.