Making way to the backyard,
I felt a sense of calmness, purity on this particular
hot, summer night.
I went to the place where the light was dim
and the stars and moon glistened like diamonds and pearls,
where the winds were warmer and the night longer,
where the vibe was the realest and where I was the coldest.
I escaped from reality there into my world,
where I know I can be the real me.
I lay on my blanket on a patch of summer grass,
feeling the wave of fresh green under the texture of the cloth
and as I watched the sky and the stars roll by me to oblivion,
I felt all my worries build in my lungs.
I could feel all my troubles leak over the point of no return,
I exhale.
I exhale and it feel it rush out of my lungs in one fail swoosh,
Ive never felt so…. Beautiful.
It was the most beautiful thing ive ever felt in my whole life,
the most beautiful feeling anyone can feel in the world,
warmer than a sauna,
melting as I synced to the music playing in the background,

I realized this could only last the night
every time I lost myself in the exhaling, the music.
I realize this can only last the night
and its worth every second til the dawn,
every smile ive ever smiled and could in a lifetime,
every dime ever spent on relaxing at some ridiculous beach
across the ocean in the middle of nowhere.
I know what I had now could only last til the dawn --- where I had
to resume my reality that I had to label as my life.
So, I exhale and wait for the dawn to creep over the clouds and shine
its unforgiving light on me to tell me…
”Its over. Another day, you can wait until I come
over the clouds and on to you but now… resume the life you live, my love.”

I will be back to my backyard again, and I will wait until the dawn once again.