Perhaps if i had finished picking at all the sharp insecurities that leave fingers raw and ******, If i had finished picking at all the sharp insecurities ; cause bones casting shadows beneath my skin. If i had finished picking at all the sharp insecurities cutting them out of me with her sharp words, Over and over and over Frantically scraping Scraping Pasting together some sense of security with my repetition Beating it into existence with my Persistence. Saying it over and over and over again
I wouldn’t be falling Yellow, brown, purple, blue, Bruises where my knees make contact With the stone floor, With concrete, With the stairs to my bedroom dungeon
My panic shaded shackles chaffing my scrawny wrists. Fear can hold you captive
I know there is no monster on my doorstep No one sees it But i hear it breathing there.