I wish that I could honestly say,
That I'm okay today
I wish that I could honestly say,
That I have the happiness I've always longed for today
I wish that I could love
Like a normal person loves
But, like I've said before this depression and anxiety
Have always ruled inside me
I wish you could understand
Like you always say you have
But, you have not been through
The crap it takes to know me
To love me
To understand me
Do you not understand
The person you've seen
Will, has, and always has been the fake me
I wish that I could finally trust
But this thing you call trust
Isnt a thing inside me
Especially since the crap that has happened to me
Do you not understand that that crap is scarring
When you are so young
What I wish you would understand is
Im NOT a fact
Im NOT a statistic
Its NOT my fault
Im NOT to blame
I did NOT deserve it
And I was NOT asking for it
And finally
I wish you could see
The things killing me