I feel wired.
I mean weird.
Wired and weird. Rearranging the letters is making me dizzy.
My eyes don’t want to focus. So they don’t.
I let my pupils dilate, relax and unfurl.
Images blur. I struggle to make out the words I type in front of me.
Can’t tell if they’re sensible, can’t figure out if I care.
Maybe I’m tired.
I might be tired, but I’m not sure.
Thought I was before, so I snorted another pill. And another. And another.
And maybe I felt better but I can’t really remember.
Now I’m not sure if I ever was tired. Don’t know what I am.
I feel disoriented. Confused. Just somehow not right.
I can’t grasp the words I need to describe it.
I just feel weird.
I mean wired.
Wait, which was it again? Can’t remember, not sure.
My head feels like thick mud, or quicksand. Or something.
Or maybe it doesn’t, I’m dizzy again.
What was I saying? Right. Wired and weird.
Will I ever feel normal again?