I am left with the only way
I ever knew how to truly say
“I love you” - a poem to you.
but this isn’t like the weightless love
interwoven in my words before;
my chest is heavy and
my ribs are creaking
as this leaden heart
sinks me deeper towards drowning.
We could not save each other,
so now we will ascend to the surface
by our individual strength.
I still want desperately to share
my first gasps of breath with you.

and I hope when you look
across the water
you see me still, if you care to look,
and you know that I was never gone –
that I’ll never leave.

*-w.b.h. // first thoughts in the morning