I thought I heard you cry, From the other side of this crowded room. Though I could not see you through the crowd, The sound is more clear and present Then any other in this frowzy room, Louder than the half-dozen doltish conversations, Louder then the raindrops crashing on the window pane Louder than the wind, as it howls outside threateningly , Louder than my own thoughts in my erratic head, They scream "I did this", and yell " this is my fault". Your would-be tears make me doubt myself And question my very nature.