Remember that time we took
a really long drive at night?

We ended up at the river,
some how.
We walked down to the water
and sat down.
We talked about the stars,
the universe,
and what it all meant.

We discussed aliens
and decided they were real.
We argued about what they would
look like.
You thought they would
have the little green bodies
and huge black eyes.
I thought they would look like us.

We smoked cigarettes all night
while we shamed people about
their bad habits.

I remember you put your feet in the
cold, dark water
and screamed.

You hated the cold.
You took my hoodie
and I shivered.

Do you remember that time?
Do you still think about it?

I do because that’s when you
loved me.
That was when nothing came between us.
Before the arguments,
the screaming,
the cheating,
the sitting in the same room
and not talking.

Before we would point out each other’s
flaws.
And tell each other what annoyed us about
each other.
Before the love just
disappeared.
Before my heart broke turned into
a frag grenade and exploded.

I swept those fragments of my heart up
and sprinkled them in the river
where we once loved each other.
I lost my heart in that river.
But that’s where I had felt it
last.