Alone in my mind
I'm standing still,
Watching life unfold
An llusion or real?

So many unanswered questions
I stand in wait,
Don't know the answers
Don't know my fate.

Endured so much pain
Compared to the gain,
A river of sorrow
A mountain of pain.

I try to stand tall
It grows more difficult each day,
Haunted by indifference and loneliness
I struggle to find my way.

When will these clouds
begin to clear,
Allowing the sunlight of happiness
To finally appear.

My future and it's outcome
Some say is all in my hands,
But there's so much that
They don't understand.

It's not as simple
As one might think,
So much I can't control
So much that doesn't sync.

I live each day on autopilot
Living life as an emotional drone,
Following a scripted agenda
Full filling life's endeavors alone.

What does my crystal ball
Hold in store for me?
Will fate grant me a truce
Or a life of continued pain, misery.

2015